In the Service of Her Majesty The Queen

I hope you had a good day and that the night is going well.

The moon is close to full. I can feel it's energy, and as usual
it is not happy energy for me.

From what I have learned in the tarot discussion classes I've been to,
it is helpful to understand the background of the various decks, what
the maker of the cards had in mind, the traditional meanings, etc. But
your own 'take' on the cards is primary.

We look at a card, magnified view, and go around the circle with each
person pointing out something/some meaning that 'jumps' out at them.
At some point, the 'teacher' tells us what the traditional meanings are.
It's a very interesting class, and (much to my surprise) I have more
than a little 'feel' for the cards. I always thought tarot was not my
thing.

I've done the I Ching for years. I love the way the yarrow sticks feel
in my hands (and yes, I gathered them myself) but understanding
the hexagrams, presenting images from another culture, and from it's ancient past at that, is murky at best.

So I am looking forward to using the cards.

And EtC, you don't necessarily have to shuffle and shuffle the cards to embue your energy into them. They come to you because you are ready for them, draw you to them, even. All you really have to do is to hold them, sitting quietly and feel them. Some incense burning (guess which one I will use) and maybe whatever essential oil you prefer dabbed on your forehead and hands is probably helpful, as well.

I have been given some direction recently to pray to the Lady for willingness, but I don't think I am. I'm going to pray for clarity and acceptance instead. I think I am more in need of that than willingness.

Perhaps the moon's energy will be kind for a change.

Tonight, at dusk, I saw 5 maybe 6 blue herons flying one behind the other toward a nearby lake. I thought herons migrated, so I was surprised to see them. There is no mistaking those big birds, even in dim light. Their long necks and bodies are as straight as an arrow. I held my breath watching them and didn't realize I was doing so until I had to breathe again.

And a hungry, very bushy raccoon scurried away across the dead leaves on top of the mulch where I work when I came out of the door later on when it was dark. We have a family of at least 3 raccoons who are very fond of our dumpster and are nearly always somewhere around but it's the first time I've come that close to one. Once it was safely out of easy range and behind a tree, it peered around the tree trunk looking at me.

It is a little warmer tonight. My hands are not as cold as they have been.


To all who sleep tonight on this side of the earth,

The Nightly Mission:

Tuck the covers all around to save
your body heat and sleep soundly;
the Lady holds the blessings and
will give them as she wills.

Wake up tomorrow and ask the
Lady yet again for what you need.

May the Lady smile
on you and me too.

G'Night.

 

If you don't mind me asking, Scryler, what faith do you believe in?

 

[QUOTE+Scryler]And EtC, you don't necessarily have to shuffle and shuffle the cards to embue your energy into them. They come to you because you are ready for them, draw you to them, even. All you really have to do is to hold them, sitting quietly and feel them. Some incense burning (guess which one I will use) and maybe whatever essential oil you prefer dabbed on your forehead and hands is probably helpful, as well.[/QUOTE]

Thanks. You are correct, of course. Quite a bit out of practice.

Incense...? Hmmm, I'd say Frankincense or Dragon's Blood (more likely). The crystalline form, right? Sprinkled over a charcoal brazier? Good Nag Champa's good, too. The good, authentic stuff.

Which reminds me...

 

I like Frankincense on a charcoal brazier. Clouds and clouds of it that way.

Didn't know Dragon's Blood (yep, that's my fav) came that way. I'll have to check that out.

 

I hope you had a good day and that the night went well.

Moon looks full enough to me.

This will be a double whammy full moon, terrific power. I may have to put myself in a straight jacket. :twitch: (Hopefully, that will not occur!)

No long sagas about the birds and animals tonight. Too busy to notice any.

First time in awhile, I actually cooked today. Amazing!


To all who are probably already asleep on this side of the brightening earth:

The Nightly Mission:

Seek clarity. Avoid confusion.
Sleep well and warm.

Wake up in the morning and
look in the mirror. Yep that's
you. Clarity.

May the Lady smile
on you and me too.

G'Night!

 

I hope you had a good day and that the night bodes well.

The full blue eclipsed moon is on! (Eclipse is over, though.)

The flock of buzzards that hangs around this area (often over my house)
came to roost in a live oak behind my house about 50 yards or so away by the highway overflow pond. Maybe the nearby water made it a trifle warmer there. They were all fluffed up and looked humongous.

There may be some truth that buzzards are the harbingers of change. I have been plagued by them this past year, and this year has seen me go through some of the most significant changes in my life, both emotionally and spiritually. Not to mention mentally.

I wonder how it has been for other forumites? I doubt I have to explain the changes I've been through, I've blatted them out all through the year here, but few others have been so um forthcoming.

And I fully expect that I will be seeing more of the buzzards. The changes in my life are not done with me yet.


To all who will eventually sleep on this side of the bright earth,

The Nightly Mission:

Go to bed with cotton in your ears
so the maniacs outside firing off
their guns to scare away the dark
don't stop you from sleeping or
muddy up your pre-sleep daily
reflections. (I guess you could
just pass right out too, heh.)

Wake up tomorrow with some
clarity, strength, hope and
acceptance.

May the Lady smile
on you and me too.

G'Night!

 

This has been a year full of change, for me, too, both mentally and in my life. I spent a year and a half unemployed, which gives a person a great deal of time to rethink their life, and I found many of my points of view and emotions changing. I've grown up a lot simply by rethinking a lot of things, and now I'm finally moving toward a true goal in life, which is to become a high school math teacher. Having a goal that I feel is really worthwhile and possible makes many things in life seem so much different.

 

Without going into too many details over an open forum, lets say that 2009 shaped up to be pretty good for us. Until I threw a monkey wrench into the works in early December.

Things are not that bleak, but I still managed to set us back a good 6 months or so just as we were getting better financially as a whole. No, neither if us lost our jobs or anything like that, we were working hard on paying down bills and dealing with an increased mortgage payment. Our mortgage had finally dropped and a few bills were ready to be killed off in full, freeing up even more of our cash.

Then I happened. My amazing stupidity caused us to lose a good chunk of a very good Christmas Bonus and I'm still facing additional fines, penalties, etc that are just going to hold us back even longer. The uncertainty of the future and how this will play out remains to be seen, but I can only try to remain optimistic, hope for the best, and worry about today only. I'll deal with the future (for this scenario) as it comes. It's all I can do.

Now, you'd think that if a husband, etc. messed up the finances via their own idiocy, the wife, etc would probably say "See Ya!". Granted in my mind I feel I probably deserve it. Not with J. No, not with J. She was very mad the night of the occurrence but after lots and lots of talking (no yelling or screaming, seriously) we're good. In fact things were infinitely better the next morning, 7:00AM CST to be exact. (nope, not gonna forget that one! :love She's still scared about the uncertainty and outcome of this incident but is dealing with it, like I am.

We'll survive and we'll get over this, I'm just furious at myself for causing the set back. Very furious. But I'll deal.

 

Sounds like taxes. :gotmyatte

 

I wish. That would be much easier and less painful to deal with.

FYI, It's got nothing to do with infidelity, past unknown children, or anything along those lines. Thankfully, I'm waaay too smart to make those kinds of mistakes. OK, paranoid would be a better term.

As a co-worker of mine said, "It's too expensive to have a wife and a girlfriend."
Good advise, that.

 

Lol, I always just say that it's complicated enough to have one woman in your life, so why would you want another?

Anyway, sorry to hear about your setback. Just remember, you're human, like the rest of us. Learn from your mistakes and there's no sense beating yourself up anymore. Another thing I always say is that we only feel regret because we haven't properly learned from something yet.

 

I hope you had a good day and night.

The full moon is still beaming down it's craziness on me.

Last night it felt different.

All the way to work this evening, there were buzzards. Here and there all along the back road to town.

It is cold enough that all the homeless shelters are opening their doors to anyone who doesn't have a warm place to sleep. Tomorrow night it is supposed to be 22 degrees, which is very very cold for Florida. Most homeless people here aren't prepared for that type of weather.


To all who sleep tonight on this side of the earth,

The Nightly Mission:

Sleep warm. Stay safe.
Wake up in a warm house tomorrow.

May the Lady smile
on you and me, too.

G'Night.

 

Oh yeah, I know. It's more of a personal honour thing, now. I knew better and I still proceeded along the wrong path. What's worse is that in the past I've been critical of those who've made the same mistake, vowing "Not me!, Not Ever!" Yeah, right. :roll:

 

I hope you had a good day and that the night went well.

29 degrees and falling.

Arm warmers on.

So far, so good.

I found a tree frog next to the office door last night, and it was cold enough that I wondered if it was hibernating right there on the wall. I touched it, and it jumped, so I guess not. I felt sorry for it, and made a little tepee for it out of dead leaves, but it didn't like it, and crawled out. So much for helping little frogs.

The moon is still mostly full and the energy shooting through me over the last couple of days (last night in particular) has burned me out.

I am tired and have already written more than I intended to, so...


To all who sleep tonight on this side of the earth,

The Nightly Mission:

Repeat a suitable mantra
after the nightly rellection
on recent events, stay
warm and sleep.

Wake up and hope it is
warmer.

May the Lady smile
on you and me too.

G'Night.

 

Well, then you should be thankful you made this mistake. Maybe not for the consequences, but for the wisdom you've gained in realizing that you, too are human and capable of making mistakes. True wisdom lies in knowing that you know nothing. Perhaps you should focus on the wisdom you've gained, rather than what part of your pride you've been freed from.



Oh, and Scryler, I think the frog was simply too paranoid to enjoy your teepee, rather than not liking it.

Can't blame small creatures for being afraid of large ones.